I have been in love with a guy for almost 5 years now...he was my ex-bf...what we had before was a long distance relationship...we just met once and we went to a resort and stayed there overnight...after that night, he had to go home because his parents didn't know his whereabouts...he just came to see and be with me...since then, i became so insecure....i always had a fight with him due to my unreasonable jealousies...what can i do?he was too far from me and i couldn't see his activities...i did trust him but i didn't trust people around him...he is a good catch in the first place and i do love him so much...since then we had an on and off relationship...and that definitely put me in limbo of loneliness.

He never came back in our place...he promised he would if he would have time and chance...but he never did...after two years of that confusing relationship he told me one day that he had a new gf...that made my world apart...my dreams were all shattered...i really felt bad and miserable...worst, he changed his moblie number...all i wanted to do that time is to look for him in their province even if i didn't have the idea if where is he...i didn't care if i would get lost...all matters to me was to see and talk to him...but my friends never allowed me to do that...i still do love him...that is the reason i endure the pain and still make friend with him.

We even call each other as "bhez" short for bestfriend...at times he sent me messages on friendster...at times,i keep on telling him that i miss him and i want him to come back again here in our place...of course, he keep on promising me too that he will...but he never meant that i know....he told me that he broke up with his gf already...i don't know if i'll be happy or feel sorry for him...now he stop communicating with me.

I still love him...i still long for him...what should i do?

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**** [Jan 13, 2008] by Carol
It's life, and as the Teacher is saying..maybe as "leave him in the heart and out from the head" and see..